So much of the laws in Mishpatim have to do with anger, and the sins that come from anger. Hitting/cursing one's parents, lying in wait to kill someone, two men striving and ending up injuring a woman. As my sil Arava stated earlier, when we get angry w/a person we build up a case against them in our head, we condemn them and build a case up against them in Shemayim.
(previous discussion was here by the way, if anyone wants to go and look
How easy it is to become angry, at least it seems to me easy enough to do. A disobedient child, a thoughtless comment, a rude store clerk.
The last was from a recent incident; I entered a store to make a purchase: I wanted to get a small gift for a friend. I did not know quite what I wanted to buy, and I had very little money to make the purchase, so I was just looking around.
I entered an aisle and was looking up and down the shelves when the storekeeper came over, demanded I come out of the aisle, demanded to know what I had come for, and how much money I had to spend. When I tried to explain I was looking for a gift, but didn't know what but I had X amount of money, he told me "We've nothing for that..." in a tone which implied that I should leave. His face was so cruel and condemning, and I was so upset....
And angry. I left livid, turned and gave him a face back, almost as if I were spitting.
And two stores away I made a purchase from one of my favorite little stores...
But I wondered as I walked away: Did I just fail a test?
Why did I have to become so angry because someone was so rude? So he wasn't nice to me. There were other stores to make a purchase at. Why couldn't I just leave and say "ok, whatever that was about I don't understand but there are other places to get the gift..."
Was that a test? Probably. Isn't that what most of our life is about? And if so, I did fail.
So what are the steps to learn how not to become angered, even when, most people I think, would see it as justifiable in some senses?
How do we learn to tame the monster?
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